Dreams Come True
today
i did what i've always wanted to do
to just stay at home
and stone
i havent done that for a long time
at least without guilty abt it
as a result, i havent dedicated the time i'd like to have to updating this thing
and thus, much of my feelings have also been eroded along with it.
nevertheless, i do remember the 4 reasons for why human rights exist.
1. Divine Endowment
2. Equity of Brotherhood
3. Human Dignity
4. Moral Repciprocity
or at least, something along those lines.
anyways, gathering from my memories, one of the more major happenings that occured was what i scribbled down on my note-pad as 'ac'.
one of thsoe things which i handled rather childishly.
i dont think my intention was wrong
neither was my content
but i guess perhaps my method of expression seemed rather haughty and unreceptive.
and once the tensions rise, there's no proving otherwise.
i gave in on the account that i could justify my means later on after everything be'd cooled.
i was truly sorry.
i blame myself for not seeing the change of winds earlier
i blame my inablilty to be more sensative and not preventing all this from ever happening.
and i guess its difficult to make it up to you
but i hope you do me a favour
and to just remove any memories of that incident.
i guess its only human to judge another based on his/her history.
since those trends are usually the only thing that is constructive enough to speak about another's character.
i'm sorry.
truly am.
earlier
i copied an entry regarding the motives of men and realised i was rather incoherent
what i was trying to say was that
all men are selfish
such that when one attempts to help another
motive behind such is either because
1. there exists mutual benefits
2. he/she wants to gain a selfless reputation
3. he/she feels self-satisfaction in doing so, contrary to wanting to benefit the other party wholeheartedly
the last part means that it doesnt really matter who you're helping.
you just like helping others
and that gives you self-gratification
such that even if it detriments the other party in the long run
i guess
it might be sourced down to our culture
there are perfect ppl around
and those who wish they seemed perfect
and hence
'thank you's and standing on ceremony becomes less of a sincere gesture and more of a necessary set of manners
we
or rather
out ancestors
all want to seem nice
and to 'seem' nice is good enough
etiquette
it seems
is the facade of the world's faults
and no
we will not admit to it
many think that guys tend to be direct
but i think guys just dont think that those things offend ppl
but when it comes to areas of utmost concern
there's no dispute who has the larger ego.
perhaps in the attempt to preserve peace among men
we have learnt to be more sensative to others
even if we dont mean it.
forgiven
but not forgotten.
i wish things weren't like this..
i did what i've always wanted to do
to just stay at home
and stone
i havent done that for a long time
at least without guilty abt it
as a result, i havent dedicated the time i'd like to have to updating this thing
and thus, much of my feelings have also been eroded along with it.
nevertheless, i do remember the 4 reasons for why human rights exist.
1. Divine Endowment
2. Equity of Brotherhood
3. Human Dignity
4. Moral Repciprocity
or at least, something along those lines.
anyways, gathering from my memories, one of the more major happenings that occured was what i scribbled down on my note-pad as 'ac'.
one of thsoe things which i handled rather childishly.
i dont think my intention was wrong
neither was my content
but i guess perhaps my method of expression seemed rather haughty and unreceptive.
and once the tensions rise, there's no proving otherwise.
i gave in on the account that i could justify my means later on after everything be'd cooled.
i was truly sorry.
i blame myself for not seeing the change of winds earlier
i blame my inablilty to be more sensative and not preventing all this from ever happening.
and i guess its difficult to make it up to you
but i hope you do me a favour
and to just remove any memories of that incident.
i guess its only human to judge another based on his/her history.
since those trends are usually the only thing that is constructive enough to speak about another's character.
i'm sorry.
truly am.
earlier
i copied an entry regarding the motives of men and realised i was rather incoherent
what i was trying to say was that
all men are selfish
such that when one attempts to help another
motive behind such is either because
1. there exists mutual benefits
2. he/she wants to gain a selfless reputation
3. he/she feels self-satisfaction in doing so, contrary to wanting to benefit the other party wholeheartedly
the last part means that it doesnt really matter who you're helping.
you just like helping others
and that gives you self-gratification
such that even if it detriments the other party in the long run
like jeff once commented
the cell
lamentably
is not open
week in
week out
hands lifted
voices raised
and sometimes
with the hype and all
the tendancy is that the motive gets hazy and unclear
nobody admits to spirital pits
simply because it wouldnt look good on their reputation
i guess
it might be sourced down to our culture
there are perfect ppl around
and those who wish they seemed perfect
and hence
'thank you's and standing on ceremony becomes less of a sincere gesture and more of a necessary set of manners
we
or rather
out ancestors
all want to seem nice
and to 'seem' nice is good enough
etiquette
it seems
is the facade of the world's faults
and no
we will not admit to it
many think that guys tend to be direct
but i think guys just dont think that those things offend ppl
but when it comes to areas of utmost concern
there's no dispute who has the larger ego.
perhaps in the attempt to preserve peace among men
we have learnt to be more sensative to others
even if we dont mean it.
forgiven
but not forgotten.
i wish things weren't like this..