Year 2004 in a nut shell.
I must say
that this year
the same year thats going to end any minute from now
has been
Spiritually.
not too good.
it was something i might've taken for granted.
discipleship was based on oppurtunity
and at certain points in my life
non-existent.
things have been improving towards the end
but generally
its quite a boo boo.
Guitar.
i believed in annoiting
and made it a point to pray an hour before playing.
flow with bbk was smooth
while others required more adjustment.
bbk mentioned i shld divert more attention to rising other guitarists up.
i'm not exactly sure abt how i'm to get abt doing this.
talent wise
we all learn
slowly
but surely
School.
slept in calss more than any other year
but ironically enjoyed the Olvls more than any other season.
the sheer joy of focussing one's energy all into one facet of life was most drawing.
Debate.
this will always be a joy
but i guess
after that day
that cursed day
it seemed all just a dream
we once had lived.
or
had we?
had we really?
i think we did.
but the joy
or rather
the absence of it
became more of a pain
in the time to come.
Relationships.
i dont really know whether the net benefits turned positive
but there were the good the bad and the rejuvenating.
for good
i made more friends than maybe any other year.
not just the hi-bye aquaintances
but tangible friendships that promise to last.
simaltaneously
the friendships that did last inevitbaly grew stronger
but not all friendships could withstand the test of time.
or rather
i cldn mantain it.
i'm not quite sure why
or what exactly happened
but me being me
i dared not confront it.
twice this year
the more meaningful ppl in my life had become more distant
and vice versa.
as for the rejuvenating
it was an experience.
at times
i just wanted to be free from whatever limitations were to be imposed on us
at others
i wasnt too sure what the other party wanted.
things had turned to its peak somewhere midyear
and like all matter subject to gravity
it took its plunge.
but of course it hurt alot more later on.
now its over
i'm glad
i'm just glad we made it.
except
and i wish i didnt have to say this
but i'm not entirely sure.
i might just be a cowed paranoid who's afraid of returning to his recalcitrant ways.
paradoxical
it might seem
but no
it happens.
still
champaign has that warm and fuzzy after taste
and scientifically proven to preserve the body
of which i am most thankful for.
misc
Christmas didnt help at all
its human tendancy to draw the link between the countdown and the unfortunate events that took place.
i know i ought not to
but neither can i force it out of my mind with a wave in the air or the snap of a finger.
now
now that its over
i'm just grateful we get to start with a clean slate
with the knowing that joel'll be in VJ for the first 3 months makes the adjustment to the new environment more bearable.
i know my writting stinks
i just hope it reflects the true basketonasness of 2004.
Bye Buster.
that this year
the same year thats going to end any minute from now
has been
Spiritually.
not too good.
it was something i might've taken for granted.
discipleship was based on oppurtunity
and at certain points in my life
non-existent.
things have been improving towards the end
but generally
its quite a boo boo.
Guitar.
i believed in annoiting
and made it a point to pray an hour before playing.
flow with bbk was smooth
while others required more adjustment.
bbk mentioned i shld divert more attention to rising other guitarists up.
i'm not exactly sure abt how i'm to get abt doing this.
talent wise
we all learn
slowly
but surely
School.
slept in calss more than any other year
but ironically enjoyed the Olvls more than any other season.
the sheer joy of focussing one's energy all into one facet of life was most drawing.
Debate.
this will always be a joy
but i guess
after that day
that cursed day
it seemed all just a dream
we once had lived.
or
had we?
had we really?
i think we did.
but the joy
or rather
the absence of it
became more of a pain
in the time to come.
Relationships.
i dont really know whether the net benefits turned positive
but there were the good the bad and the rejuvenating.
for good
i made more friends than maybe any other year.
not just the hi-bye aquaintances
but tangible friendships that promise to last.
simaltaneously
the friendships that did last inevitbaly grew stronger
but not all friendships could withstand the test of time.
or rather
i cldn mantain it.
i'm not quite sure why
or what exactly happened
but me being me
i dared not confront it.
twice this year
the more meaningful ppl in my life had become more distant
and vice versa.
as for the rejuvenating
it was an experience.
at times
i just wanted to be free from whatever limitations were to be imposed on us
at others
i wasnt too sure what the other party wanted.
things had turned to its peak somewhere midyear
and like all matter subject to gravity
it took its plunge.
but of course it hurt alot more later on.
now its over
i'm glad
i'm just glad we made it.
except
and i wish i didnt have to say this
but i'm not entirely sure.
i might just be a cowed paranoid who's afraid of returning to his recalcitrant ways.
paradoxical
it might seem
but no
it happens.
still
champaign has that warm and fuzzy after taste
and scientifically proven to preserve the body
of which i am most thankful for.
misc
Christmas didnt help at all
its human tendancy to draw the link between the countdown and the unfortunate events that took place.
i know i ought not to
but neither can i force it out of my mind with a wave in the air or the snap of a finger.
now
now that its over
i'm just grateful we get to start with a clean slate
with the knowing that joel'll be in VJ for the first 3 months makes the adjustment to the new environment more bearable.
i know my writting stinks
i just hope it reflects the true basketonasness of 2004.
Bye Buster.