swines.
there was a time when i thot i knew
that i knew for certain that the kind of connectivity i pursued existed
my excuse was
it was all quixotic
not real
and therefore i cldn have had experienced it yet
but i wld wait
i wld wait and i wld find it knocking.
but something told me that i cld nvr be so certain
because well
maturity nvr comes
because you'll nvr know if there is a higher level of reasoning and understanding till you've been there
and you nvr know if you'll ever get there in the future
and so
you can nvr know if you're right.
and well, since i'm supposed to be paranoid, i herby declare the right to fear myself being overly-presumptious with whatever i say.
but whatever the case
the fact still remains that she was right all along.
and this wasnt the first time she's proven to be so.
pearls of wisdom
cast upon swines.
but now i see.
if love cld be all that sacrificial, that infinite as i thot it ought to be, it wldn be love. becuase love is mutual, and otherwise it wld be plain stupidity. to be mutually sacrificial is an oxymoron becuase the other party simply wldnt allow it. in any relationship, there will always be the giving and the taking. or recently yet not so recently, i've learnt, 'demand' and 'supply'. and so even though there might be supply in abundance from both parties, neither wld have the demand for such extreme causes. i guess to some extent, increasing demand and supply would naturally cause a shift of the entire graph rightwards thereby increasing quantity or in this context, mutual dependancy, but the connectivity i dreamt of had direct compromise on demand to supply and supply to demand.
i hope my language has been vague enough for you to not understand this whole mumbo jumbo trash.
cuz i dont want the world to see me.
that i knew for certain that the kind of connectivity i pursued existed
my excuse was
it was all quixotic
not real
and therefore i cldn have had experienced it yet
but i wld wait
i wld wait and i wld find it knocking.
but something told me that i cld nvr be so certain
because well
maturity nvr comes
because you'll nvr know if there is a higher level of reasoning and understanding till you've been there
and you nvr know if you'll ever get there in the future
and so
you can nvr know if you're right.
and well, since i'm supposed to be paranoid, i herby declare the right to fear myself being overly-presumptious with whatever i say.
but whatever the case
the fact still remains that she was right all along.
and this wasnt the first time she's proven to be so.
pearls of wisdom
cast upon swines.
but now i see.
if love cld be all that sacrificial, that infinite as i thot it ought to be, it wldn be love. becuase love is mutual, and otherwise it wld be plain stupidity. to be mutually sacrificial is an oxymoron becuase the other party simply wldnt allow it. in any relationship, there will always be the giving and the taking. or recently yet not so recently, i've learnt, 'demand' and 'supply'. and so even though there might be supply in abundance from both parties, neither wld have the demand for such extreme causes. i guess to some extent, increasing demand and supply would naturally cause a shift of the entire graph rightwards thereby increasing quantity or in this context, mutual dependancy, but the connectivity i dreamt of had direct compromise on demand to supply and supply to demand.
i hope my language has been vague enough for you to not understand this whole mumbo jumbo trash.
cuz i dont want the world to see me.