A Place Too Often Visited.
if there were a place
i could mark
a place where tears are most common of sights
it would undoubtedly be
the airport
and i've been to the airport a little one too many times too often this year.
not for class outings and the sorts
but seeing people off
and once
getting seen off
leaving behind
timeless value.
this feels all so post-first-three-months-ish.
its like tasting a cake
and not yet being able to eat it.
not just them
but all of us
because we wouldnt be no more a53 without the least of any of us.
can we all just say it was a good memory?
a good experience?
i dont think so..
i have dreamed a dream
and now, that dream has been taken away from me.
there are a few languages i know of
english
french
german
russian
a bit of chinese (yes)
a bit of malay
tamil
and sufficient japanese to conduct a proper conversation witha hooligan
but in all these languages
i have yet to come across
a more depressing expression
that contains more distance
and more disheartening inevitabilities
than...
than
Goodbye...
Goodbye.
familiar feelings revisited.
i guess the most distancing thing about the airport
is that
from my personal experience
relationships tend to be harder to keep in tact
as juxtaposed to being able to see the person
face to face.
inexorability.
i feel part idiot
but mostly
helpless.
little can be done.
but 05A53 has made quite a believer out of me.
i came in a perenial pessimist
a cynic
a fatalist abt relationships
and very much kept inside.
maybe i'm still the cynic
but i've definately become more optimistic of the human race
and i think
i think
no
i believe
that
this grand regathering
4-5 years from now
its going to happen
its going to happen.
unlike first three months
i'm happy for these dudettes
pursuing their dreams on foriegn shores
following their passions
next year will be quite different.
the ratio now shifted from 14-10 to 12-10.
but there is msn in perth!
i dont think 05A53 has been like anything
anything at all
like anything else
any other social group
any other exerience
anything
that i've ever gone thru.
i just wanna say that
the chemistry we've had
it's
so
so very tangible
so distinct
so clear
yet entirely inexplicable.
and we lived that.
we became that class.
we were 05A53.
and uniquely so.
there was once a time
i believed in corny lines like
it doesnt matter the time
love will make a way
nor the distance
cuz love supercedes any distance
and i did give up those beliefs
but in one year of jc
not any jc
not any class
not any classmates
i think i've become corny again.
you made an optimist out of me. C=
i could mark
a place where tears are most common of sights
it would undoubtedly be
the airport
and i've been to the airport a little one too many times too often this year.
not for class outings and the sorts
but seeing people off
and once
getting seen off
leaving behind
timeless value.
this feels all so post-first-three-months-ish.
its like tasting a cake
and not yet being able to eat it.
not just them
but all of us
because we wouldnt be no more a53 without the least of any of us.
can we all just say it was a good memory?
a good experience?
i dont think so..
i have dreamed a dream
and now, that dream has been taken away from me.
there are a few languages i know of
english
french
german
russian
a bit of chinese (yes)
a bit of malay
tamil
and sufficient japanese to conduct a proper conversation witha hooligan
but in all these languages
i have yet to come across
a more depressing expression
that contains more distance
and more disheartening inevitabilities
than...
.
.
.
.
.
than
Goodbye...
Goodbye.
familiar feelings revisited.
i guess the most distancing thing about the airport
is that
from my personal experience
relationships tend to be harder to keep in tact
as juxtaposed to being able to see the person
face to face.
inexorability.
i feel part idiot
but mostly
helpless.
little can be done.
but 05A53 has made quite a believer out of me.
i came in a perenial pessimist
a cynic
a fatalist abt relationships
and very much kept inside.
maybe i'm still the cynic
but i've definately become more optimistic of the human race
and i think
i think
no
i believe
that
this grand regathering
4-5 years from now
its going to happen
its going to happen.
unlike first three months
i'm happy for these dudettes
pursuing their dreams on foriegn shores
following their passions
next year will be quite different.
the ratio now shifted from 14-10 to 12-10.
but there is msn in perth!
i dont think 05A53 has been like anything
anything at all
like anything else
any other social group
any other exerience
anything
that i've ever gone thru.
i just wanna say that
the chemistry we've had
it's
so
so very tangible
so distinct
so clear
yet entirely inexplicable.
and we lived that.
we became that class.
we were 05A53.
and uniquely so.
there was once a time
i believed in corny lines like
it doesnt matter the time
love will make a way
nor the distance
cuz love supercedes any distance
and i did give up those beliefs
but in one year of jc
not any jc
not any class
not any classmates
i think i've become corny again.
you made an optimist out of me. C=