so kiss me and say goodbye to me...
during the spare time we all enjoyed during physics paper, i was thinking of blogs.
there's this thing about the human kind. we're relational creatures. hence the phrase, "no man's an island". there's something within us that tells us not to be independant. something that tells us that we just just lean on each other.
and because of this feeling, people start feeling what we know as 'lonesome'. and our reaction to feeling lonesome tends to be to tell. to tell. and ever since we realized that friends cant always be there for one another, realistically, mankind has created another source of 'telling'. and i'm telling you right here.
or so this applies to those who have that something within them.
and the best thing is, there're always be those who'll listen. my tracker tells me so.
unfortunately, i have never exactly been able to associate myself with this frequency. hence i dont tell. i say. forgive me this is rather duh. its new found revelation to me.
it must be the post-geog syndrome. i've never smoked so much and felt good about it. therefore the above stated gibberish is understandably logic-less. please ignore tech error.
Along the process of being me, i've come to realise a number of things about myself.
for one thing, i have become rather shy.
there was once a time, probably due to my upbringing in canada, that i was very much outspoken. somehow, that got lost along the way. along the process of being in singapore.
i admit. i am probably one of the more childish people for my age and my age than. i can already visualise people nodding their heads and saying good you know.
but thats not the point. point is, when i came here, i underwent a few series of change. and i didnt quite like change after that. besides the fact that i just suffered from a cultural chock in singapore, i changed my primrary school as well. my innitial primary school wasnt so bad. the people there were nice, friendly, and generally i enjoyed myself there. than, when i went to aitong, everything changed. for a start, i was laughed at. by this popular guy in class. and since than, i was never really close to guys. at least than. than again, maybe i cant blame him. i was childish after all. oh well, i cant say too much. punhon was there too.
that was my dy by dx = 0. ever since, i learnt to keep my gap shut. i remember the words vivdly. haolian. yepyep. i do agree though. i am to some extent arrogant and i do show it. but since than, i became afraid. maybe its a guy thing to fear rejection. but since then, i feared critism like i feared the loss of my life. and since than, like stalin, i've began all my personality cults. like for instance, taking off certain posts.and thats why, my actions seems to be based on 1 thing, avoiding ever being called haolian again. i hope to steer away from that. but i dont exactly see it coming.
its sad i want to see myself perfect.
auditionsauditionsauditions.
Adrienne -
i thought i knew you.
during the spare time we all enjoyed during physics paper, i was thinking of blogs.
there's this thing about the human kind. we're relational creatures. hence the phrase, "no man's an island". there's something within us that tells us not to be independant. something that tells us that we just just lean on each other.
and because of this feeling, people start feeling what we know as 'lonesome'. and our reaction to feeling lonesome tends to be to tell. to tell. and ever since we realized that friends cant always be there for one another, realistically, mankind has created another source of 'telling'. and i'm telling you right here.
or so this applies to those who have that something within them.
and the best thing is, there're always be those who'll listen. my tracker tells me so.
unfortunately, i have never exactly been able to associate myself with this frequency. hence i dont tell. i say. forgive me this is rather duh. its new found revelation to me.
it must be the post-geog syndrome. i've never smoked so much and felt good about it. therefore the above stated gibberish is understandably logic-less. please ignore tech error.
Along the process of being me, i've come to realise a number of things about myself.
for one thing, i have become rather shy.
there was once a time, probably due to my upbringing in canada, that i was very much outspoken. somehow, that got lost along the way. along the process of being in singapore.
i admit. i am probably one of the more childish people for my age and my age than. i can already visualise people nodding their heads and saying good you know.
but thats not the point. point is, when i came here, i underwent a few series of change. and i didnt quite like change after that. besides the fact that i just suffered from a cultural chock in singapore, i changed my primrary school as well. my innitial primary school wasnt so bad. the people there were nice, friendly, and generally i enjoyed myself there. than, when i went to aitong, everything changed. for a start, i was laughed at. by this popular guy in class. and since than, i was never really close to guys. at least than. than again, maybe i cant blame him. i was childish after all. oh well, i cant say too much. punhon was there too.
that was my dy by dx = 0. ever since, i learnt to keep my gap shut. i remember the words vivdly. haolian. yepyep. i do agree though. i am to some extent arrogant and i do show it. but since than, i became afraid. maybe its a guy thing to fear rejection. but since then, i feared critism like i feared the loss of my life. and since than, like stalin, i've began all my personality cults. like for instance, taking off certain posts.and thats why, my actions seems to be based on 1 thing, avoiding ever being called haolian again. i hope to steer away from that. but i dont exactly see it coming.
its sad i want to see myself perfect.
auditionsauditionsauditions.
Adrienne -
i thought i knew you.