Sometimes, when i look at myself
i wonder
who am i?
thats probably the most common question any street teen would ask.
at this present momen, i feel no more than the composition of ppl i've hung out with.
my choice of songs, my picking up guitar, even my dao-ness.
my mannerism, my appreciation of lamenology, the whole package.
yet somehow, there is this certain aspect of me that people will never understand.
even those whom i've rubbed off.
i guess its gotta do with colours again.
i seemingly have a very different lenz from others.
i hoped.
but now i know
it will never be.
what the future holds,
i do not know
but i pray we will be free
free from the past
the moment and last.
and yet hold dear
the mere but sincere
memories of seer.
uncomprehensize i know.
i wonder
who am i?
thats probably the most common question any street teen would ask.
at this present momen, i feel no more than the composition of ppl i've hung out with.
my choice of songs, my picking up guitar, even my dao-ness.
my mannerism, my appreciation of lamenology, the whole package.
yet somehow, there is this certain aspect of me that people will never understand.
even those whom i've rubbed off.
i guess its gotta do with colours again.
i seemingly have a very different lenz from others.
I am a question to the world,
Not an answer to be heard.
All a moment that's held in your arms.
And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway…
You don't know me,
And I’ll never be what you want me to be.
And what do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no I'm a man.
You can take me and throw me away.
And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on your own.
They don't know me 'cause I'm not here.
And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change,
They’re the ones that stay the same.
The don’t know me,
'Cause I’m not here.
And you see the things they never see
All you wanted, I could be
Now you know me, and I'm not afraid
And I wanna tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am.
And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change,
They’re the ones that stay the same.
They can’t see me,
But I’m still here.
They can’t tell me who to be,
‘Cause I’m not what they see.
Yeah the world is still sleepin’,
While I keep on dreamin’ for me.
And their words are just whispers
And lies that I’ll never believe.
And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can they say I never change?
They’re the ones that stay the same.
I’m the one now,
‘Cause I’m still here.
I’m the one,
‘Cause I’m still here.
I’m still here.
I’m still here.
I’m still here.
yeah. i'm still here.
for know, its not that i want to be understood
but i want to revive the pleasures i enjoyed half a year back.
debate.
the team we were
the bonds we carried
the determination to argue
and the satisfaction we had of being with ourselves.
i want to hear that voice
i hoped.
but now i know
it will never be.
what the future holds,
i do not know
but i pray we will be free
free from the past
the moment and last.
and yet hold dear
the mere but sincere
memories of seer.
uncomprehensize i know.
Last time I talked to you,
you were lonely and out of place.
You were looking down on me,
lost out in space.
Laid underneath the stars,
strung out and feeling brave.
Watch the red orange glow,
watch them float away.
Down here in the atmosphere,
garbage and city lights,
you gotta save your tired soul,
you gotta save our lives.
Turn on the radio,
to find you on sattellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.
All we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.
I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails I'll wait.
I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.
All we are is all so far
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me.
Well I know,
I know.
You're falling out of reach.
I know...
i'm getting thirsty.
and though there's many a thing to say, i darent.
kinda reminds me of the farie tale when the princess couldnt speak so that her swan brothers could re-morph back to their original human being.
i dont mind being princess or farie.
when you feel a certain way, all songs seem apt.
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out