Saturday, February 19, 2005

In Times of Weary Desperation.

And so yet another day has passed
and i feel totally warn out.

i should have just replied her messages
i hope things turn out ok.

but the one thing i want to do is to simply run away..

escapsim
confrontation
facing the music
i struggle.

i often flirted with dreams of starting on a flesh slate with no trace of the past
but it doesnt happen;
it never happens.
moral hazard it is.

i dont want it anymore
i wish it'd just go away..

for i have found contentment
satisfaction
and peace in my heart!

at least for a while.

i know
yes i know
what will erode and what is to stay
but blame my lack of foresight
i cannot encompass such great things
so far ahead.

i just want to give into temptation
just this once
and maybe
one day
i'll be back again.

maybe.

but hey
no
this is only one aspect
there aint gonna be no snowball
there aint gonna be no slippery slope

but perhaps
ideally
the concept remains as it is.

i am aware of the answers
i know the solution
tmaybe
i just need to find comfort
and refreshment and renewing of strength
for i do not fight alone.

its so difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel
and yet
the nearer to the light
the greater the shadow.

but for every shadow
there speaks of light.

we all lead such busy, busy lives. but sometimes we just don't realize the impact we leave on the shores of life. footprints -- intangible, mysterious, but ultimately precious. "life is not a cup to be drained, but a measure to be filled." this is my story. my search for pure shores. welcome to my corner of the world.
courteousy of josh's blog.
truly admirable
him.

i know full well the consequences
and yet
i cannot comprhend that greater good we've always talked about.

acknoweldge Him and He shall direct your paths

i give it all to You
 and i pray You show me Your will.